DDM and I are not okay

07.17.11

M0m’s going down and so am I. Actually, my sweet cousin asked the question last week that started all this.

She queried, “Have you told your Mom it’s okay to go?”

I replied, “No! Because it’s not okay with me!”

Well, there was the answer. I realized it’s not about me, it’s about Mom. So I called Hospice on Saturday morning and they said to hit her with every drug they’d given me. I have dolled it out carefully as she and I both are anti-drug. So I went the other way and administered all medication.

When I hit her with everything I had it didn’t make a dent.  She’s in bed and still not asleep. Me? I took a three hour nap today.

My sweet cousin came to visit this morning. When I opened the door, she looked at me and said, ” You look bad.” Frankly she was right. I am fading fast. We had a nice talk and then made Arugula Pesto. I barely remember any of it which makes me know I’m really not okay.

I had plans to blog on Mom’s toys today but, frankly, I think I just need to go to bed. Maybe hoping for morphine for Mom and a good night’s rest for me will make me better tomorrow. If not, sorry, but I”m wearing thin and there is not a lot of funny left in me right now.

Trying to spread laughter throughout the world…one chuckle at a time. Pray for DDM and ME.

Mikie Baker
www.mikiebaker.com

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One Response to “DDM and I are not okay”

  1. Deia Roberts says on :

    I have enjoyed reading your blogs this year and some I relate to way too much….Especially about gardening, but that is another story. Today I let you know I am prayine for you and your mom. My mom has become a DDM just this year and it is a very difficult time. You always portray a wonderful caring attitude about your family and life, thank you. I just wanted you to know that others care for you too!! Still praying.

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